This past Sunday I was confirmed. I was never to sure if it was what I wanted until after it had taken place. I wonder if that is what it feels like before going through with a marriage. Thoughts of, “What if it isn’t right for me? What if I’m too young? Am I mentally ready for this?” occured leading up to the mass. The more I think about it, the more and more it seems quite similar to marriage; just as I would dedicate myself to a woman, I am dedicating a part of me to my church by accepting this sacrament. Going through a ceremony in the public's view to make known that I love and desire the Catholic church seems quite similar to how I would go through a marriage ceremony to tell everyone of my love and desire to marry a woman. There wasn’t as much dancing at the after party, when compared to a wedding reception, but the food was no less than “heavenly.” I now realize, no matter how much time and effort I put into preparing for confirmation, I was never going to feel fully ready. And I'm ok with that now.